Most of us humans aren’t very good at being vulnerable.
Which makes sense when we consider the fact that we started farming and building establishments so that we wouldn’t have been to be vulnerable to the forces of nature anymore.
On the other hand, a big part of being a musician -or simply an artist- is being vulnerable with your audience. I’ve found that the more honest and sincere my music is, the better it is received.
I’ve often said that “Being a musician is baring your soul to touch the heartstrings of others”
However, at the same time, Ive found that I bury my feelings and emotions into music because it’s much easier to hide them under metaphors with pleasant melodies and notes than it is for me to simply tell someone how I’m feeling.
I’ve been striving to be more transparent these days, so here’s me being vulnerable:
I’m not well.
I haven’t been well for a while now.
I’m doing the work.
Im helping people,
I’m healing and teaching.
Im being still, going with the flow of the universe and keeping my raft afloat with optimism.
I’ve been force feeding myself silver linings, striving to be optimistic.
Some days, I feel depression lurking near by.
Her and I have been in an abusive relationship for a while now,
So I know her well enough to know when she’s close by.
I haven’t been well these days.
I truly trust and believe that everything will work out.
It always does.
But the uncertainty and unavoidable pain of existence become so heavy some days.
Almost more than I can bare.
My body is numb, my mind is exhausted and my soul is sore.
I’m not well… but I’m doing just fine.
Here’s the song it inspired:
To raise anchor or bring a piece of equipment out of storage and put it to use.
I’d like to conclude this by saying, when your days get dark and heavy, feel free to reach out. I’ll do my best to be there, for you to talk with or vent to. 💛
Love and peace,
JP
Musician Goes Monk 